suffocate

i m suffocating

dunno wat happen, just feel like so stress, out of sudden.
too many individual assignments, its final semester.
i got to get 3 individual assignments done within next week. 2 by thursday, 1 by sunday =[
and i start to think about my future, every minute all those question mark and planning are spinning in my brain.

too many thing in my brain lar weii....can i kick you all out ah please!!!
the pressure is getting heavier and heavier...
i never have such a heavy pressure and stress before, i use to be super easy come easy go and i take thing quite easily...the reaction is like :" har do this a? do lo. owh problem come a, ok just work it out."

but recently, thing change..maybe its getting nearer to my graduate, critical moment are reaching..
no longer play around with friends, no longer can sleep in class, no longer can hanging here and there with no worries.

when things have to be change, we face difficulties, bcz we have some sort of resistance toward change.
its human behavior.

maybe this is what contribute a part of my stress.

another thing is, future planning and financial plan have to be out.
m i going to UK for one semester to finish my degree?
m i going to apply the post-study worker permit in UK? i thought so, in order to earn more money.
i have my 8 years plan, which is now until my brother finish his degree (perhaps) 8years later.
in this 8years, i needa earn as much as i can, to help in my family. although my family member is small (4) and my parents are still working, but as elder at home, this is my responsibility.bcz i love them.

so, my planning i very important =]

how m i gonna work it out?

=.=|| 

still thinking.

so conclusion.

my brain are damn damn full.

well, finish grousing... =P

bonne nuit ♥